This is what it means
To desire the truth
This is how it feels
To deplete your youth
This is what it takes
To defeat the crush
This is how it feels
To inhale the rush

A day in the life
Of anyone else
Losing all touch
With a former self
Spoils from the sea
A sack of shells
Off the deep end
And doing it well

This is how it feels
To reveal the truth
This is what it means
To require the proof
This is who you are
When you cease to be you
This is what it’s like
When you do the Zru

Oo – gah – oo – gakka – oocha

Back it up / Pack it up / Crack it up / Stack it up / Back it up / Hack it up / Smack it up / Stack it up

More of the same
More of the same
Can’t contain
Utter disdain
For more of the same

Running away
Have to escape
Getting away
Make an escape
From more of the same

Can’t remain
Won’t remain
Taking the blame
Living the shame
Have to escape
Make the escape
From more of the same

Oh, you must be Octavia
‘cause I recognize your wings
They’re just like in those pictures
That we found with ancient things
Yes, you must be Octavia
Bejeweled in diamond spurs and rings
Seeking answers from the one
Who makes the crickets sing

The rabbit-headed woman said
To go down to the water’s edge
Where roaches creep with siren’s heads
To sing the praises of the dredge
The rabbit-headed woman said
To go down to the water’s edge
Where cockroach people dance in line
To honor the new-fallen dead

Octavia – sweet Insect Queen
Making babies night and day
Thirsting for the in-between
Lurking in the docking bay
You must be Octavia
Reveal to me your wicked taste
Come for me, Octavia
Entangled in your love embrace

Like being torn apart
Still feel her wings around my heart
The subtle scrape of rubbing legs
The stacks of bodies feeding eggs

Now this won’t hurt a bit she said
And then she said, well, so I lied
She must’ve left me there for dead
Never guessed that I’d survive

But I’m happy to be here
Just glad to be alive
So happy to be here
A member of the hive

Yeah, happy to be here
Working with the team
Satisfy my ladyship
‘cause she’s my newfound queen

Mercilessly merciful
Savagely polite
Strangely sympathetic
Itching to ignite
Oddly empathetic
Yet horribly precise
Thoughtfully impervious
She grips you in her vice

But I’m happy to be here
Just glad to be alive
So happy to be here
A member of the hive

Yeah, happy to be here
A sycophantic freak
(re-)born to serve the insect queen
Seven days a week
Like being torn apart
Still feel her wings around my heart…

We welcome you with open arms
With open fins and open gills
We welcome you with smiling eyes
Antennae and tentacles

Our castles made of sand and weeds
Have slipped so gently out to sea
Our underworld is heaven-scent
But hellions lurk just underneath

So watch your step and give wide berth
To anything that seems inert
It’s not much different here from Earth
Our babies laugh, our ladies flirt

And if you find you miss your home
Just call up the dial-a-view
On those late nights when you’re alone
Imaging the chosen few

He-ey Ho-oh

We welcome you with gritting teeth
With fragrant breath and humming lips
We welcome you to meet yourself
With forking tails and mermaid’s hips

Our women want to lure you in
To make for them a sacred space
So watch your step and watch your back
For blinking eyes and bleeding lace

He-ey Ho-oh

Oblivion, oblivious
But relatively harmless
Change your world
And change your mind
Otherwise no change at all

Her hideousness is evident
To all who dare to look
Her loveliness is more discreet
Though hardly by the book

To feel the thrill of holding
Her soft body in my gaze
Keeps me enthralled for hours and hours
That turn to days and days

She’s hideous to others
But she’s beautiful to me
I see through her exterior
Into her dark beneath

I see past all her fallacies
Into her deepest soul
She takes me in her pincers
And relinquishes control

She’s hideous to others
But she’s beautiful to me
She’s hideous to others
But she’s beautiful to me

Beautiful to me

Pagoda is the mother of
The fish who sailed to sea
Investigate the rumors and
In time you’ll come to see
That every motivation has
A secret underneath
A dirty little happenstance
To drag you down beneath

Pagoda finds her memory
Lost long ago at sea
Beaten down to half an inch
Of all she used to be
Recovering her instincts
She hovers near the beach
And all those little memories
Are suddenly in reach

Poseidon is her nemesis
And Neptune wears her emphasis
It’s all a tangled seaweed mess
A Hollywood adventure quest
In love and life she has been blessed
But satisfy her emptiness
And you alone will warm her chest
As she fills her esophagus

The Mother Fish, The Mother Fish
Mother of all that you wish
The Mother Fish, The Mother Fish
Say hello to Mother Fish

The Mother Fish, The Mother Fish
Mother of all that you wish
The Mother Fish, The Mother Fish
Ovoviviparous Mother Fish

It’s been so long
I can’t remember
How long has it been?
Serendipity is taking
My heart for a spin
Don’t remember anything
Or who I used to be
Been gone so long
That goddamn knows
It feels like forever to me

Disappearing memories fade
Into a great abyss
Garbage in, garbage out
Give us an insect kiss
Reminiscing of a time
That I don’t recollect
Mystery is calling
So I place my calls collect

Been so long
I can’t remember
How I used to look
Short and fat or tall and thin
Straight-laced or off the hook
Memory is fickle
Mind plays tricks on me
Garbage in, garbage out
This one plays for free

Disappearing memories fade
Into a great abyss
Garbage in, garbage out
Give us an insect kiss

Zero here reporting from dimensions off the map
Found my voice then lost it in the trees that drip the sap
It’s cold as hell I might as well curl up with a witch’s tit
Got this GPS but goddammit that don’t work for shit

My heart is feeling heavy as a sack of sod and bricks
My mind is working overtime hallucinating tricks
But this shit’s real and all I feel is numb from head to shoes
Garbage in garbage out, got the head-and-thorax blues

Beat the clock, invite the crunch
No remorse and no regrets
Out the back door, out to lunch
Leave behind enormous debts

In too late to turn back now
Can’t turn back the hands of fate
Off the deep end anyhow
Aphrodite came too late

Off the deep end catching flies
Down and dirty, old and wise
Off the deep end, deaf and mute
Pluck all that low-hanging fruit

Onda bubl fezng nurt
Plezma boddle frazng blurt
Solda bubal flowdum hi
Arf-2 konga helltoo pie

Off the deep end anyhow
In too deep to turn back now

Where have you gone?
What have you done?
Where have you gone?
What have you done?

You can’t go back
You have to go back
You can’t go back
You have to go back

How to get back?
Just one way back
How to get back?
Just one way back

Sleep infinite sleep
Dream infinite dreams
Stay a while until you no longer
Know what it means

Feel a little chill
Running through your soul
Icy tingles down your spine
As you regain control

Shake off all you feel
Shake off all you know
Un-remember everything
Until you overflow

Until you overflow
Until you overflow
Experience the undertow
Until you overflow

Heaven wants me
I can feel
Angels calling me